MArcH !

Today is 1st March le. I just wake up at 12.00 pm , so bored and started typing some crap here .
Yesterday night cannot sleep properly. Kena pawn in dota till mother cannot recognize . I started feeding =x , my frag became negative . I felt left behind a little in the my games. Although my gb is improving , i doubt i will gain anything from it . And my college , too. My results is like static. CTS exam was like a wow. Despite the title, what i really need for the cts is insanely analyzing skills and some decent memory to answer tht paper. Which i decide is not really worth my time . And i m going to face the consequences . I'd opt for half , 10 marks at least . Maybe I ll get less . Who 'd knows . Pfft .

Hungry. . . Want to go tabetai now. Adios amigos , & bon' appetit.

Am I ...

Am I addicted to blogging ?
Am I that unfocused ?
Am I that Blur that I dont even know myself ?
Am I easily confused & influenced?
Am I too Naive ?
Am I a coward ?
Am I on the right track ?
Am I lazy or this sem is busy as hell ?
Am I gonna make it through this sem ?
Am I thinking too much ?

Now I know living alone in the house is no fun at all. So freakin boring. House chores left undone. My rooms messy as a war zone . I became so lazy tat i started skipping my meals. It started with lacked of sleep at first. Why lack of sleep ? Its cybergaming addiction. That eventually leads to me skipping class today =( . I d figured I ll lose all my focus after mid term. Why cant my mind just stay focused , think easy and just fckin complete my assignments. So hard to lift myself up. So reluctant. And I had to procastinate all the time I ve got to the very last minute, where the pressure is at the highest and getting over stressed up myself. Always standing in the middle of that fence. My fence. Always undecisive . Which is why I have no life.
Much to my dismay , I know I dont understand anything at all . And , in front of my friends , I became a different person . I would blabber about things that I wouldnt usually said . It made me weird. Uncomfortable. Irregular. I guess u are right . I need some time for myself. Just a while will do.

I .. I .. Lol. I'm Woo Wai Kit. o(^.^)==o Puch !

It has been a long while , ever since I felt this way . Usually bored , and low in self confidence, U can often find me confined in my room , eternally locked in the cage of boredom. But today , I did something i wouldnt have thought of myself. I BROKE OUT OF MY NORM.
It feels as if I saw a glimpse of my own life, how I want it to be and most importantly It made me happy in a way. Theres more & more meaning to living in this world. Found out that there is so many things out there to be done, experienced and lived.

And 1 more thing before i forgot =x. About my college life. I may have taken a liking to this *** ***** but that doesnt mean that I had Given in my Heart yet . True , I had a hard experience but as i continued to probe myself further i uncover a lil bit more about my own personality.
The "like" which i felt is more towards admiration of that bubbly personality of urs . Yup , Minus that 38 ness .LOL. Anyways , i m off to collect nice dramas for all the sixers to watch .
I m quiet , but that doesnt mean i m always troubled by that reason . The things going on in my mind are of course problems that i started in the first place . Once a gamer , always a gamer. Once a sixer , always a sixer too . No regrets whatsoever.

>.< v !!

Today is a @@ day. Didnt sleep at all for the whole night, because playing gb. Then then in the morning when i was Sleeping in CTS CLass i got freaked out , Almost get heart attack. Here is what happened : I was tired , sleep deprived, and before going to CTS Class i leaned on the wall , right next to the fire hydrant / alarm . And then , it was time for CTS , so i hurriedly went in and take a nap. While i was doing so , a bunch of girls went to take their seat. And then Mandy , Shouted " OMG ! WU- GONG !" At first , i was pretty ignorant and dont give a damn la. So dem 7 sleepy ad.. still want listen meh. Then the word WU- GONG sound so farmiliar that it began to ring a bell on my head. Then PANG JIA YING came in , he said "O SHIT ! , Ronald , DONT MOVE " . The instant he said that , i was WAT THE FARK!@#$ ! Theres is a freaking milipede or centipede on my body . My fear took over me and i began sweeping my hair and my whole body like a dog getting rid of water. And My FACE was like PALED. For a while. That made me unable to sleep for the whole CTS CLASs. TRied to take it easy but.. DAMN kena phobia for a while. Luckily the centipede fall on the floor and ended up stomped by ceo. So farking disgusting. I also dont dare imagine that its crawling on my head and i dont feel anything, even though CRawling in between my hair. EWwwwww. BleaGH . Pui pui pui . BLeaaggggg. Yuck.
So next time guys , Lesson of the day , Never to lean on the wall where there is HOLES in them . They are home for not only spiders , but malicious Centipedes as well =) . *Take note *

Mooo =)

Havent Touched Dota, WAtch movies, pool , Visit FTz for a long time =x
My hands getting itchy == . Dont know whether my farming still ok or not =x . Going to become a noob loolx.
I missed the time spent with ccy , pho , ken , and Fj . Missed the Burger stall at the roadside too.
After my tests , i ll join u guys . I ll get my form a.s.a.p too. Till then , u guys have fun and go ahead =(
As for my dear blog , rest well . I ll change song themes for you now and then. ~ ja ne ~

LoL =)

Felt like a woman with pms. HAd a major breakdown for the past 2 days , because of my immaturity and stupidity hahah .. quite funny when i looked back . . nvm now felt a lil bit more better , i think. hahah i took the stress test yesterday , it registered 19 /20 . Want to apologize to the 6 =x for ffking . . . i went to get some help. and hard as it is , i tell myself to move on , bit by bit , and now i hav gotta tell myself to take it EasY .

At least for now , i m feeling hungry rather then sobbing and whining like a suicidal bitch . Hah ^-^.

BTw, if any of you have the time , check this article about Radical Honesty out : its pretty good =x lolol

http://www.esquire.com/features/honesty0707

The Decision That Hurts.
Its not easy for me to make that decision. But I figured I d hurt myself less. Sadness and depression builds up when u miss some1 so much. Cant bear the pain anymore because its driving me crazy. I cant pretend and go on like this anymore. The feeling just got stronger every time i think abt it . And it hurts more , enough for me to tear.
Tried to contain my feelings but it pains me even more. I cant lie to myself. This is my problem. Theres no need 4 any 1 to read this . Hate me if u want , use me as u like & break me as u wish. AFter all , I m just a blind fool in this world.