Bubyex , Trolak =)

Hm. Nice camp with an unexpected turn of events. It was boring on the first day, but fun on the next. Air conditioned room , heater shower, TV, medium grade fluffy beds, and soft + warm blankets. The food there was 10 x better then Mama's Kitchen. Makes sense , after all we are in a resort. At 1 point, Steven was saying that HELP wants to buy our heart by giving us all these surpluses LOL. That makes the camp.
Now about me. If I say that after this camp , I had already instil the qualities of a leader , I'd be a fcking lier. However , it aint meaning I aint gaining anything at all.
I stayed there for 2.5 days. So , 2.5 days worth of experience. But as far as I m concerned , I m still the old me .
1. I learned that planning for a goal ISNT good enough. You have to plan for the miscalculations and other problems which will arise as well . And always be calm , and observe more, to deduce the best solution.
2. The camp gave me a boost to my endurance towards annoying pests, and also reminiscing the last time I went intothe jungle.
3. I made new friends. To begin with, I was in Emma's group. And so I made friend's with Emma, Iris, Rajeb , Sherwan , and 1 more girl , short hair and Short, she sprained her leg, and i forgot to ask her name . .. ( so i called her Satan Shirt) because her shirt says something about Satan. That girl is in Micro class.. have to ask by monday._.
4. And then , then .. let me think. Ah ! I know. I m still immature yet. Sorry for that._. But in my state now, I m mentally unprepared for emotionally things. I cant say i ll just push it aside, because its totally imposible and i D be lying again, but but but I'd be calm and take it as easy as possible.
5 aND the last thing, prob the most precious souvenir , I'd ever get from this camp.
"Never live in the Glory of your Past . If you do that, you are already DeaD."

My Frontier t.t

I live in a world full with desires. I am sure we all do. Just by having desire itself , we are able to move on , motivate ourselves , reassure and even change our paths. I exists too ,because of this so-called desire. I vividly recalled, last sem , when I created my first facebook account. I was saying that I m still finding my purpose in this world and bla bla bla. What crap lolx.

Recently I keep seeing things in a diff way , and I cant stop pondering. I came into this world with a 0 . And Like a graph , i d never see the maximum of it. I onli know that i start with a 0, rite from the bottom. So rite now , my purpose is to try and live my life to the fullest, so that my graph will be a happy one =)

wtf .. la

I knew it . I knew something was wrong. Finals start from Cost of Production? Are u kiddin me ? After all cost of production & Markets Means got 2 CHApters onli for Finals. After 5 hours of trying, i barely managed the first 12 pages. I know. U wanna kill me in AC's FC's and MC's ? But I am not afraid nor intimidated . I wont lose to ur fcking paper. I wont get owned that easily. Just wait knn. Time's on my side.

Tenshin ~

I wonder if theres some 1 watching over me. I'm feeling hopeless again. I know that I m thinking too much again, but thats just me. Sigh . Cant wait for finals to be over. I'd be looking forward to it. No doubt. Till then , i Have to bear the pains of waiting.
I m unable to take care of myself, yet I think of other peoples. And I cant help much. If i say I m dissapointed in myself, that would be a lie, because originally I dont even give a damn. But I dont see I'm totally passive either. I m in the shades of gray.
I m being confused, because I m cant weigh my problems ; the way I see them and also the problem itself. So frusfrating at times. Many people keep telling me , do what you are suppose to do , but I find that statement so vague. If they were to specify the advise , it would base all the way down to feelings of sympathy and care.
So does that mean, i should say , thankyou for your care, and still ponder about my unsolved problems ?
Nothing in this world seems concrete. I dont even know where I m standing on. Time changes things quickly, unexpectedly and its happening as I type. Still so undecisive . Still immature.
Still unchanged. Is this what it feels to be young ?
I pray and hope that the angel which is watching over me guides me to the side where I truly belong. Dont desert me yet, because I need you. So , lend me your will and strength , and place me under your blessings. In return , I'd be your angel next time =).

Do yoU ?

Do You haVe What It takES To be a Ronald?
(open to all kinds of people)
As the title suggests , the conditions are as BeloW :

a) Postpone your assignments to the last day before deaDLinE.
b) Sleeps at minimum 3.30 am every day.
c) Eating irregularly, sometimes one meal a day, or brunch during dinnertime, and so forth.
d) Refrain from talking to anyone you see.
e) Listening to a particular song 30-40 times in a row.

Venue : AnywherE
Time Limit : 7 days = 1 week
Here comes the rewards for those who succeed :
1st prize : RM 100 . Plus , Transport from Ronald , Free 1 month.
2nd prize : RM 50 bucks.
3rd prize : 1 Starbucks / Dunkin Donuts worth RM 13.
Consolation Prize ! : Warbook 10 million. LOL.

Remember ! Its 1st come 1st serve basis !
I think thats all la. Haha , if u are looking for some challenge then can come try. Which I 'd doubt any 1 will HAHA.

oO ~ Lyric !

IRYU OST AESTHETIC LYRICS

Longing for you day and in dream

I'm hoping you are here and leading my way

You steers my road anytime I need

If you walk away, I will follow you

Trying my life

With your sacred gifts you gave to me

I won’t vain and succeed it as your precious soul

Holding your hand

And I'm walking through the all of the world

Carrying your wish like the Venus in the dim sky

How ironic =x

Come to think of it , I spent 3 years playing GunbounD. Yep. This game had me stuck on to it for 3 years. My friends all have moved on to other games , but I m still drawn to it. The game itself is more like a place where I can relax , and enjoy my pace. When I experienced Gunbound for the first time, it formed a bond between the both of us. A bond born from the heart =). It became my remedy when I m lonely, It cheered me up when I am down , so much like a reliable friend. A friend which reflects on myself deeply .

No matter how much I'think , its 3 years, around 1000 days . On count :P . I played a lot less , probably because I am at 90% .Learned the in & outs ,played with all kinds of ranks & peoples. Now, I'd login occasionally to greet the friends I have made online , and spend some of my time with them.

The funny thing is , I never get bored . When I m playing gb , the things around me became oblivious. I got so deep , so absorbed into that world of mine that I 'd wished that time was frozen there and it could last forever .Anyways , 3 years =S . If it was a subject, I guess I would obtain a degree in Gunbound already . But this thing :P is the first which I've ever put my entire soul & concentration in it. And i Didnt regret any single bit . Even though it slowed me down for 3 years =).

Now as I look back , my past has became a memory that is engraved in my mind. The memories of this game is one that I will cherish and never forget , as long as I live.