"HumminOKE"

Karaoke session was enjoyable. But something's wrong with my voice today as well as my stomach. My voice was coarse like normal at first , but after getting some stomach pains from duno what food i ate my voice turned to a sissy . Wtf man. SISSSSSYYYYY LIKE voice . I tried to readjust my own voice but it became worst - more sissy like. UP TOWN GIRLS ! became like Upah Tiown Gerrss . Siao Siao de . And whats more . . when i went to college today .. grrr dah la lambat .. kena more stomach pain. At the end of the class . . i gave in to the pains again. CAnnot tahan la . . Sikap ni. Feel like kena cheated . . i went to help , pay 3 bucks just to use the toilet. zzzzzz. Come to think of it maybe i know why i kena stomach pain ad . Maybe first it is because i didnt eat anything for breakfast, then then i drank iced tea, then eaten some frozen crab meat and the the lemon pepsi ! Adoi ... watashiwa baka desu ne . In the end i think what i did wasnt realli karaoke-ing but humming = Humminoke ! Besides , I just realized how fast time flies. Yeah , just as fast as Ceo's barbaric voices filling up the entire room . With a deafening roar and vigorous spirit he easily takes out other contestants and dominated them like never before. Ceo , WAy to Go for You ! & on the other hand , SHamE on YOu , Vikings . Anywayz cherishable , glorious and enjoyable moments like these are too short to be true ,and hopefully we are able to experience them more often in the future. ^-^ Peace out.

I gotta go toilet again ARGH ! Be rite back =(

I made up my mind.

I wanna be a GE . I ll just concentrate everything I have on this goal of mine. Let the test & fun begins !

Que Sera Sera ?

College is good. Helps to divert my attention . I din know that kena this thing also can affect me so teruk . . . I m realli a weak minded guy after all .
THose who read this pls dont luan luan guess please =) thx.

Just found out a few things after going through it :
1. Feels just like being sucked into a black hole . There is no ending to its spiral ,dark and mysterious twirls.
2. Next, all you feel is that ur lacking of oxygen , lungs pulling you from within. You feel like throwing out but you cant , and your brain cant seem to function properly.
3. Unable to stand the pain anymore , you tried to find your way out by turning back . But to much dismay , the portal warped itself into another dimension.
4. Isolated , despised , and wounded what are you going to do ?
5. 2 choices : Accept or Fight against it.
6. Yeah i selected option B ( Fight !) . And hell , i realized that there is no way i could win. Never.
7. So what now ? Onli 1 option left to be taken : ACcepT REaLiTY and Que Sera Sera xD ^-^

Lessons To be learned :
1. Never keep your feelings to yourself . You should share them around with your friends so u can disperse all the stuff and minimize stress levels. Good.
2. When u laugh , the world laughs with u , when u cry , u cry alone . Check .
3. When You have feelings even a little next time, say it straight so that u wont come to a situation like this , so damn suffering and u cant do shyt , cant even sleep , cant even eat , and worst of all almost kena accident.
4. When u kena this thing, your mind will be clouded by some kind of drug and you wont be able to know what u are saying. So , when u think u're going to kena it get prepared . Treat it like a nuclear holocaust.Stock up lots of anti depression pills and sleeping pills as well.
5. CEO is a good anti depressant item .Yeah , thx for lightening up my day today , even by a lil bit . Wanna say thx u . Ceooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. LOL.

I guess thats it le. First time kena this but , nvm la i get some exp in return , next time wont kena again i vow. Too much for me to handle. And too early. BLEAGH !

- Slowly -

Tonight is a new beginning for me . Not only did I lost my interest in games ; I am giving up on them . Its painful at first , but I plan to take things on slowly . one at a time . Thats right - SloWLy. Its weird , I dont feel like myself 5-6 years ago. Maybe I m too used to being a spoiled child, giving stupid reasons and excuses and in the end making my own life miserable. Kinda sad isnt it ? Being a spoiled brat for 6 years. I wanna just say it here - I m truly sorry , Mom and Dad , sorry for sleeping all this while. Now that I have woken up , I wont dissappoint those who put their hopes into me , ever again.

Felt better by lots now. The depression seems to be gone for now . And my mind is less cloudy then it is before. I mma take a shower and continue my work .

Painful - kurushii ne.

Studying alone in college aint that easy after all .I dont know why studying has become so painful suddenly. I m having depression and there is many things going on in my mind. I m unable to sleep , and every morning I woke up I wonder whether am I still the old me. Feeling a little afraid and lost again I cant sense which direction I m moving in. Each step i took brought me closer n closer to my breakin point. I cant continue on like this . I cant take a step back either .
3 days of college and U already feel like giving up ? WTf ronald , ur such a dumb ass . . you should really quit college if you dont plan to fcking study .
Ouch .

Reflectia by (Eufonius)

nijiro no gairo ni
musuuno kotoba tachi
hanbun dake demo
kokonaraba susunde yukeru
totsuzen no melody
mata kasoku shiteyuku
kokoro wa tsukanda hitohira no kagemo keshizaru
mamozashi KIRA KIRA
amari ookikunai michidemoiine
soshite kakedasu tobikomu kiseki e
miageru teofuru hikari e
tomaranai kimochi o tsunaideyuku
RiFuRekuTia
Yurameku chikazuku ashita e
kagaderu yumemiru mirai e
masana na sora dokomademo tsurete
namidano owari aizuni

On the rainbow colored road ,
those endless words..
Although it's just a little bit ,
As long as they're there , i can move forward,
The melody that suddenly appeared ,
made my heart beat faster again,
I cant get rid of that shadow in my heart at all,
your eyes are sparkling,
the road isnt very wide , but that's fine
So i'll go toward that miracle
I'll look up and grab that light
I grab hold of those feelings that won't stop
ReflecTed TearS.
Confused , I look towards tommorow.
Toward the future dreams I see ...
Toward the corners of that new sky ,
Where our tears end.

8 Things

Tagged by Joyce.

8 Random facts about me:
1. I sleep approx 4.5 hours perday.
2. I m a male.
3. most of the time I hate myself more then i hate other people.
4. i onli cut my nails when they're restricting my movements on my keyboard.
5. when it comes to food , i m fussy & choosy to the max.
6. i really enjoy dotaing, gunbounding, warbooking , colleging and even spending time with my dear friends .
7.i m bad in lying , and i m easily addicted to something
8. my specs keep dropping down so i need to push them up every few minutes :x

8 things that scares me:
1. goddamn milipedes
2. freaking centipedes.
3. flying cockroaches.
4. being alone in a dark , creepy night by the cemetery.
5. girls ,apparently.
6. Arnold Swazzernagger .
7. unable to wake up from a nightmare .
8.heights

-8 Favorite Music Artists at the moment:
1. Ferry Costern
2. ATB .
3.Utada Hikaru
4. DJ Illusionx
5. DoAsInfinity
6. colbie caillat
7. FayRAy.
8.ZombieLoan OST

8 Things I like most:
1. trico.
2.witch doctor (dota hero ) - t.t i know its weak but.. >.> the onli hero i can properly use
3. seeing money increasing in my warbook accounts everyday
4.being able to become friends with feifei,honghong,joyjoy,yongyong & yanyan
5.my childhood memories
6.day dream or perhaps , a sweet dream when sleeping ._.
7.a part of myself where i am giving , tolerant & happy-go-lucky
8. All the good food in the world which suits my taste . HeHE i never seem to grow fat ^-^

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