is my life a dream ?
or was it just a lie ;)
the past haunting, the past haunting.
eating up my souls.
slowly.
wishing.
a future.
with less regrets ? "p
but now
without purpose
without goals
wandering , wandering
wasting my life away
goin with the flow
its an endless cycle
i love myself on the outside.
but i hate myself on the inside
im not that strong type of person, just stubborn and short sighted, less wise at times.
i know i m useless. yet i have so many wonderful & caring friends. and my mum still treats me as her son.
yet i m not being productive , not doing my responsibilities.
i know i m useless...
i cant even be honest with myself..
i m typing , and i m suppose to feel totally sad.
but some part of me resists, telling myself to be happy instead.
happy times flashed ,forcing me to drive away the sadness.
i m afraid of many things. and have very little guts.
i kept running away from issues.
i dont even know whats right or wrong anymore.
its sad.. but i cant really do anything about it.
in the end.. i m just a useless junk...
useless junk.
.02
