dont walk in front of me
because i wont follow

dont walk behind me
because i wont lead

walk with me,
try

because friendships should be like honey stars
sweet to perfection

but then i realized
not always.

and i start to wonder
where did i gone wrong

when all i've done is to follow my blood
trying to be myself

i feel distanced
by the ones i really cared

my so called tomodachis
isnt really there

i thought carefully
and pondered

as if it was a dream
made of chocolate sundae ice cream

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its not easy to find an emo breeze,
one with a ghostly howl,
carrying the scent of a nearby rain,
dark clouds conquering the sky's domain.

its not easy to find a perfect sky
one blue so deep and bright,
carrying a sense of tranquility,
with seagulls & swallows in sight.

its not easy to find the perfect night,
one warm , quiet and starry,
carrying a mood of solitude,
damn that was lovely.

yet no perfection's so hard to find,
as of that which i extend,
and which i hope you will ever treasure
none other then to simply be your friend.

because the world is full of people
who will laughingly pretend
but when its said and done
consider yourself lucky you've gt a friend.

and yes , i m grateful for that.

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i dont know if i will be able to trust again , after knowing about the lies that was speared in between.

till then , i ll just let my thoughts dance upon the wind.

dont know which direction i m heading, and where ive been isnt much to speak of.

flying a kite made of glass & paper thread, hoping it would go aloft.

2010

new year resolutions :

1. focus more on actions that has big impacts on my life , rather then actions that will just keep me busy.

2. to have a strong bias for action, and now, rather then tommorow.

3. to be able to laugh at myself and the world more.


To be able to push myself , to be able to focus on my job and to feel happiness for the very first time is a luxury i have not had for many years.

I have grown resilient , and i must move , plan things ahead with greater resolve and not spend time wasting away mourning on yesterday's sorrows and misfortunes.

The time has come, to shed off old skins and habits ,in order to become a better person, a better human being.

Now go , and live 2010.

A blessed and gorgeous year is awaiting, ronald !! :O