SS

The illness is called 'SS' disease.
It stands for Syok Sakit or Sendiri Sakit .
The patient will be very happy although he/she is having pain.
The cause of the disease is currently unknown , and until today remains a big mystery.

Now that you heard of it..
I wanna say ~

for making me feel at ease , whenever i talk to you.

you never fail to amuse me :D

i gotta go sleep soon. medicine taking effect.

dont sleep so late ar.

nites ~~

Reflection

Something I noticed about myself.

After going through certain experiences in dealing with love & people, you can be sure i'll never be quite the same boy again :D !

If the things i want to do cannot be understood by other people , is okay. Sometimes its better that way :D

i m not waiting, because i know.. time is precious =/

A New Life , A New Direction.

A few months back, I was nowhere in my life.
I was so lost , I almost gave up on myself.

Then I took a part time baking course in MIB.

And now, I am back in class, studying for a 2 year diploma baking course.

I met many new friends, and most of them were helpful & kind.

The classes were interesting, so they didnt bore me at all. In fact, I find it easier for me to pick up what the lecturer is saying because of the little experiences I gained fromworking not too long ago.

The dots seemed to connect somehow.

And then .. I met this girl.. in my class.

Silly , boastful , little gurl.'

I think I m in love with her .

Wednesday , 2 March 2011

Its 2.26 am. Finished Dota-ing Session with DJ Solo Haze & his other 2 friends. Won 5 , lost 1. Sat next to him and notice hes from China. Oh well. Mum's coming back from Brunei tomorrow.

Listening to hiroyuki-san 's Yozora really lifted my spirits up. I m somewhat unable to sleep. Restless. Nervous. Oh. The song's stopped. *hits the replay button again* x 20

2.42 am.

Good Ronald : Cant sleep ar. Go wash clothes lar. Do it. Tmr ur mum wont have to do so many house chores.

Bad Ronald : Lazy la. Tmr only do la. Tmr still got time. Now tired.. wanna chill on bed.

Which side to choose ?

Ronald says : Looks like I will have to side on good .. not because good always win .. but because i m a sozai

And so u are.. really are. =x

hurt. hurt. hurt.

Prob the most emo post of all.

I m standing on this dark floor, facing the dark wall.
Above me is a dark ceiling and above the ceiling are dark skies with no light whatsoever.

The only light i have is my own life source.

My motto rite now : If you want to play a game called life, make sure you play to win. Else, dont join. Because your life will always be meaningless and you are as good as dead.

Cast away my dark past.
Cast away everything.
Let the tears of tonight
Wash away
And make the day
A better tommorow.

is my life a dream ?
or was it just a lie ;)

the past haunting, the past haunting.
eating up my souls.
slowly.

wishing.
a future.
with less regrets ? "p

but now
without purpose
without goals

wandering , wandering
wasting my life away

goin with the flow
its an endless cycle

i love myself on the outside.
but i hate myself on the inside

im not that strong type of person, just stubborn and short sighted, less wise at times.
i know i m useless. yet i have so many wonderful & caring friends. and my mum still treats me as her son.
yet i m not being productive , not doing my responsibilities.
i know i m useless...

i cant even be honest with myself..
i m typing , and i m suppose to feel totally sad.
but some part of me resists, telling myself to be happy instead.
happy times flashed ,forcing me to drive away the sadness.

i m afraid of many things. and have very little guts.
i kept running away from issues.

i dont even know whats right or wrong anymore.

its sad.. but i cant really do anything about it.

in the end.. i m just a useless junk...

useless junk.

.02

was driving home , 5.31 pm today.

which came first? the egg or the chicken ..

pondered about it for a good 7 minutes ( stuck in jam + radioo)

and finally realized that the answer depends on which egg and which chicken the question is refering to.

diff eggs , diff time zone. diff chics, diff time zone.

ahh.. silly question.
~
be back to office after finishing my porridge. lotsa hmework to do. =/